I read this post this morning and I was crying, not because of the words itself, although it was sad, but because I experienced something so similar and I had to write something in response, not just ‘support’ but tell him something that I had to tell myself:
You are not depressed
You just think you are
The psychiatrists are insane
You have lost
Things of importance
Wouldn’t they not feel the same?
If things they loved and cherished
Were ripped out from their feet
Those things to satisfy the soul
That make them feel complete
But they do not believe
In the soul
Categorising humans
Is their only goal
They see the human
Not the being
And the diagnosis
Is their ego’s feeding
For it proves
That their bias yes is true
They do
Experiment on you
They told me
I was crazy
When I told them I was a writer
I told them to go online
They sat there eyes glazed over
But not one of them took the time
To act on my words
For they believed
It was
Delusions of grandeur I had
And in my frustration
To their ignorance
They
Then told me I was bad
My refusal
To take
Their medication
Designed
To relax my mind
6 men rushing in
Injection
Suffering
Their actions
Then
Justified?
Left in isolation
Screaming in rage
For a rape
That was
Worse than sex
They’d then
Confirm
In fact
I hadn’t yet learned
My lesson yet
So I learned to lie
To them
Keeping the truth
In my mind
I told them
I believed they was right
Suddenly
They listened to me
Now that I
Did not put up a fight
I swallowed the pills
That made me sick
And forced myself
To vomit them back
Then suddenly
They saw
I was better than before
So tell me
How is that?
I retreated in myself
All I did was write
Furiously
To express my rage
The psychiatrists
Said
Then they were very pleased
That they had now noticed a change
I was free to go
But of course
I must
Take medication
To make my mind strong
I took the packet
And smiled
Like an innocent child
Disposed of it
When I was gone
You’re going to relapse
Again and again
This medication is for you
I do disagree
And now I am free
I certainly
Am going to SUE!!!